Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Day 117
And a picture of the flowers my hubby got me yesterday. He missed us while we were gone on our short little girls getaway! He really does spoil me lately, I would be lieing if I said I didn't like it because it actually is very nice! Just something about feeling adored by someone that loves you! Spoiled? Me? Yes a lot lately!
Ok ladies you ready for the spoiling that I have been getting lately........when I got home from my trip...I had my laundry room cleaned, my pantry cleaned, my refrigator cleaned, my pan/tupperware cabinet, cleaned and I got a wonderful foot rub while watching a movie with the family. Yep I am spoiled lately!
Love you mucho mucho baby! You are amazing me more and more every day! Love you lots and lots but not just because you spoil me! ;)
Well these are some pics of the flowers he got for the girls! Have a great one everyone!
Day 116
Well I was on the road most of today but here is a quick shot I got before we left! I just loved these little cars we saw!
Have a great one!
Day 115
Went on a little short trip to the beach! Had a great time! My youngest loves the water! Me an my oldest went jet skiing and para sailing! Oh and she made me into a mermaid (pic below)! She said she never wanted to para sail again, I guess because of all the creaking it was making, I personally enjoyed it a whole lot! I like being high up away from everything and everyone! Just nothing else like it really, I wont lie the creaking did get to me a little lol. Everyone got a little burnt but it was a lot memories to cherish!
Here are a few more pics from the trip!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Day 114
Happy Easter Everyone! Hope everyone is having a great time with their families! And celebrating the rising of our Savior! Isn't it just great to serve such a wonderful Savior!
Well this is a pic of the belt that went to my daughters dress. I was so very pleased with how this dress came out. Well not a lot of time today so I will chat with y'all in a few days! Will be busy so no posting for a few! Have a wonderful day!
And another pic of my daughters dress with all those pleats I ironed the other day!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Day 113
Well I had a really good day today! I had a nice walk with my hubby this morning, did a little sewing, went to a family Easter thingy, rode the four wheeler with my hubby. Have I told y'all lately that I love my hubby!
I decided to talk about the four wheeler ride today because I had a lot of thoughts going through my head as I rode in the wind. I closed my eyes and I just enjoyed the fast ride with the wind blowing in my eyes and my arms wrapped around my hubby's waist. I love moments like that, they are memories to hold on too. As I rode I was looking within myself and sometimes I feel so alive inside but I can not seem to find a way to escape, I want to so badly but that shy, timid, reserved person takes over. Sometimes the other one breaks through and eventually I know she will be so comfortable with herself that she will emerge even more. These are just some of my random thoughts. I will one day find the balance of that alive person within and that reserved person on the outside because the balance is who I truly am! The one God made me to be!
I will get back to my words tomorrow but for today I will go with EMERGE!
Emerge: to come into existence; develop
Well hope y'all have a wonderful day!
Day 112
Late on yesterdays post! Busy day yesterday. I had to iron all these pleats so that my friend could add these to my daughters Easter dress. The love of a mother is all I have to say about this one!
Had a really good day! I found out some information about an old friend of mine that was pretty shocking. I will just say that you think you know people sometimes but in reality they will still surprise you. Crazy really! I wonder about friends sometimes. Not that the ones that are in my life are not great but they really baffle me sometimes. I don't understand them. I really sometimes think that either you take me or you leave me. I want to be real and if you can not accept me for my realness then maybe you should move on. I am not trying to sound rude but I just can handle any more losses in friendship this year. It has been a hard year for me in that area of my life. Seems like they come and go so quickly from my life. I don't understand it but I guess God has His hand in all of it, I just can not see Him at work in it. I miss the ones I have lost but I know that maybe they served there purpose in my life, does that make the missing go away, not really but it does help me know that it will get better one day. I don't know, guess I am just rambling because of hurt feelings I suppose. Well I still know that God is with me and that He never will leave me, He will never come and go, He is always there for better or worse and He truly genuinely loves the REAL me!
Until the next post!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Day 111
Well I just realized that I had not taken any Eastery Pictures! Actually I haven't even taken Easter pics of my kids yet, I know shame on me! So to get me in the mood here is a start! My kids dyed a few eggs last night so that gave me shots for today!
Incline: to lean, bend
"That he may incline our hearts unto him, to walk in all his ways, and to keep his commandments, and his statutes, and his judgments, which he commanded our fathers." 1 Kings 8:58
I want my heart to lean towards God! I want to walk in His ways! I want to acknowledge Him in all I do! I want to go forward and know that if I step out and I am scared, scared of being hurt, scared of what people will think, that I will be leaning so much on God that I will know that I will be okay because my strength comes from Him! When I lean on Him then I know that everything will work out for the good and the good things that He wants to bless me with in this life. When I start leaning to more of what I want, that is when I seem to get in trouble, that is when things sneak in my heart and start causing more pain than they have too because when I lean on him for understanding I see things differently then when I lean on my own understanding. My understanding is limited and hopeless but His understanding is amazing! Yes he sees beyond my weakness, he sees beyond my sins, he sees my future, he sees what he created me to become!
Can I be honest? Sometimes when my understanding is leaning towards myself, I go into that wrong thought pattern of its just too hard to live for God, he ask me to give up to many things, its too much pressure. I get so off track! But then he gently nudges me and says "I love you my child, I am at work in your life, I have a plan for you, I have a future for you that is greater than these others things that you think are hard to give up, those things will pass away my child but what I have for you is something that is stored up in Heaven for ever and ever" then I come to my senses and realize that what I want, what I really want, all comes from the God who created all things and knows my heart inside out. The things I gain are so far greater than the things I think I miss out on in this life sometimes. Truly I don't miss out on anything, but the things I give up protect me, they are my barriers to keep me safe, to keep my mind set up on God! I love my God! He knows exactly what I need, when I need it! I get upset sometimes, thinking He is not hearing a word that I say but then He shows me how amazingly awesome He is to me! Let us all lean on God, His benefits out weigh anything this world has to offer you! Give it a try, I promise you will see His blessing forevermore!
I try to pray daily "Lord help me to see as you see"! This helps me to incline my heart towards Him!
Have a great one everyone!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Day 110
Well I was walking around outside again, wondering what in the world I had not taken a picture of yet, and well look what I found! I love love this shot, hope you do as well my friends!
No words today, it's wordless Wednesday! I will ramble tomorrow!
Catcha later!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Day 109
Hope everyone is having a wonderful day!
Mask: anything that disguises or conceals
Do you ever mask parts of who you are?
I think in life that we do mask parts of who we are sometimes. Sometimes we don't think people will like that part of us or we see that they are sensitive in certain areas so we conceal something that we think might offend them. Are we ashamed of that part of us? Is that why we try to conceal or disguise that part of ourselves. Are we scared to let people see who we truly are as a person? I know in my life that this often true. I want people to like me and I tend to conceal parts of who I am with some people in my life. I even try to conceal parts of who I am from the one that truly loves me, the one who created me!
But I have come to realize that when I conceal I am not truly being an honest person. I am in fact being a false person, someone that hides behind a mask in hopes that she will be liked by all. But in fact we can not hide from people or things. We have to face them head on, we have to go in and say this is who I am! Sometimes we will find people that we just don't click with and sometimes we find people that we have a common bond with that truly loves us for who they see we are on the inside.
Sometimes you run into those few people that can see past the mask that you put on because in all mask there are holes for the eyes so that you can see where you are going. And some people can look into your eyes and they can see your joy, your despair, your loneliness, your smile!
Do we look deeply enough at people? Do we really see what they face on a day to day basis? Do we care enough to look deeply into their eyes past the mask to see what truly is on the inside? Sometimes people are scared to take off the their mask, scared of the pain it may cause but if we little by little look deeply into their eyes, the window to their soul, we can see who they are, we can see the beauty inside of them. Sometimes we might see the ugliness, the pain, are we willing to look into that deep part of who they are?
Sometimes its easier to just look at the mask because we don't have to see the scars lurking behind the mask. Everyone has scars, everyone has faced pain but also we all can find the joy we need in our Savior. The one that comes to heal the pain, the one that touches the scars. He still lets us see the scar as a reminder of what He has done in our lives but He can remove all mask, He can show us how beautiful we are to Him. He can help us open up and let people past the barriers that we put up to protect ourselves. He can give us that pure source of ultimate happiness and joy that overflows!
Every now and then, we find things in life that we think bring pure happiness but its a mask. A mask covering the ultimate joy, the mask is trying to deceive us, it doesn't want us to dig deeper because it knows that under neath we will find the ultimate happiness that can not be compared to any other in this life! I want to move past the mask. The mask of trying to hide, the mask of false sense of happiness, the mask of protection! I want to depend on the true source! The source that loves me for me! The source that created me into this vessel for Him! He teaches me to become more like Him day by day, little by little! The only protection I need comes from Him!
Well enough of my rambling scattered thoughts. Have a wonderful evening!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 108
Walked down to my friends a little bit ago and got these shots of her beautiful hydrangeas. I got me some of those crazy shape up shoes to walk in and well I will say that you can definitely tell a difference when you walk. I usually don't like walking because it seems pointless but with these shoes I think I will do more walking. I like to feel a burn if I am going to exercise.
Have you ever had a corybantic attitude? (I so had to use my word for the day today)
corybantic: frenzied, agitated, unrestrained
Oh goodness! I know I have, very often in fact! Some days it seems that the corybantic attitude tries to stay with me all day long even overtake me. Some days it seems that I want to be left alone in my attitude. I want everyone to fade away and I want to crawl in my bed with my attitude and sulk.
I just looked up the definition of frenzied and it means violently agitated! I do remember days when I was so very violently agitated about my life! I would ask why? Why me? Why now? Why? Why? Why? But you know what, those days pass and we then realize why we were at that point and what it did to strengthen us as a person? We look back and we see it differently, we see the beauty that the violent agitation brought to our lives!
Well I know some days I grasp for things to say but I want to always see the beauty in what seems like hopeless situations that bring aggitation to my life! God has brought me through many and I know that He will bring me through many more. I know I will ask Why? again and again He will show me!
Have a wonderfully day!
Day 107
Heard some wonderful preaching on Sunday, went shopping with my hubby and daughter, had a short nap and then heard more great preaching! I got the best outfit ever yesterday, I do believe it is one of my favs now! Well now to figure out a picture for today! Talk to y'all soon!
Oh and one of me from Saturday that my hubby took!
Day 106
We had a wonderful time at Kidz fun day! We had an ice cream party and it was a blast! I am not really gonna type a lot because I have a few pictures to share!
My daughter took this one and I really love it!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Day 105
Busy day yesterday so I do apologize for the late post.
I was so very excited about getting this shot yesterday. It took me, mom, and dad to get this shot but it was so worth it! She wasn't very happy with us but she did an awesome job posing for us. LOL
Good: morally excellent, right, proper, honorable, worthy
We try to be good people, we try to be the best people we know to be but there is only one that is truly good and that is our Savior! No matter how good we try to be, we still stumble, we still make messes, we still are just human! Sometimes as a christian women I get overwhelmed with having to be perfect all the time. Trying to be the best that I can be! And then I feel ashamed when I get angry, harbor resentment, find I have bitterness lurking in my heart. I hid from these things a lot. I have learned I am a good hider and that in fact is not good because eventually it has to be uncovered and we have to deal with all the pain we hold in our hearts. I wish that life was pain free but its not. We will have good times and we will have bad times. I just hope I can stop hiding from the things that hurt me and confront them head on in my life from now on! Life is so very complicated and can get in a mess in no time if we are not careful to go to God daily and let him direct our paths.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Day 104
Went outside looking for something to photograph, saw some pears starting to creep out so took some of them but on my way back to the house i found this lady bug! So made me want a macro lens but got a save up for that one! One day, sooner than later hopefully!
Well we had our monthly ladies tulips the other night and we were given eggs with a word in them. We had to say something that word meant to us pertaining to God. I thought well that is a good idea. I struggle sometimes to try and find something to talk about on here so I think I am gonna start picking a word and telling what it means in my life! Thank you Sis. Tonya!
Kindle: to light up, illuminate, or make bright
Kindle can mean so many different things in my life. Sometimes it can mean that I can feel God so strongly and I feel he illuminates my life in every way! And then sometimes it seems that He makes bright the things I struggle with, things I hide from, things I don't want to face! I don't like those times very much at all. I mean who wants to see their weaknesses made so bright that you can not avoid them. He is saying, hey look over here, we need to work on this part of you! Sometimes i am glad that he wants to help me to become more like him and other times I get angry because I feel like he left me! But he never left me, he always was right there being my protector, my guardian, my hope, my peace, my love! He was always there showing me mercy, grace and love! Glad that I serve such an awesome God, that he loves me so much that he is willing to stand back sometimes and let me make mistakes so that I can learn from them! Not that he left me in them but he gave me a choice! Sometimes I make the right choice and sometimes I make the not so right choice! Sometimes I go off of my feelings and we can not walk only in feelings. We are selfish people and if we walked only by feelings then there is no telling where our lives would be right now! Thank you Lord for your protection in my life!
Do you have a take on the word "Kindle"? If so what does it mean to you?
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Day 103
Well its not a flower but it is my favorite bottled water! Wordless Wednesday my friends!
Have a great one!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Day 102
To everyone who is tired of flower pics.......get over it!!!! Just kidding, Just Kidding! I had to show off my beautiful flowers I got for my anniversary last night. We went to eat and these were sitting on the table when we arrived at the restaurant. Yep my hubby gets extra points for sure on that one! I truly felt very loved yesterday! It was a wonderful night!
I think I have been on the phone most of the day today! I really need to get some cleaning done so enough chit chat for now! Talk you y'all tomorrow!
Monday, April 11, 2011
Day 101
I found this froggy on my window this morning!
Its my Anniversary today! I am feeling very loved right now! Love my husband very much! He is a good man! We both have our faults. We have both let each other down. But in the end our love is strong! Stronger than we realize sometimes! Love you Baby!
Day 100
These are some flowers that my hubby got for me! They were all over my island when I got home on Saturday!
Day 99
Sorry for the late post! Life has been busy!
Well Saturday I went to a few plantations with the ladies from my church on Saturday! Today (as in Saturday) was a mixture of good times and trying times. I felt torn, torn between things I wanted to do and things I needed to do. Life is difficult sometimes and things happen.
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